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A lot of things happened these few weeks.... Working and came home late on weekdays and then disappeared during weekends from my house even for the whole day after doing some housework at home.

A friend ask me for weeks whether I could accompany her to buy something. The thing is I don't have time for her and there is someone who really needs me and I can't split myself into two, therefore I chose the alternative choice.

There are a lot of things in my life I never told her and I could understand why she doesn't understand how much I've been through but sometimes I feel irradiated because she never ask how is my life. (I am really sorry for the crop up!)

Sometimes I thought, is this call good friends? But yet I'm too soft-hearted to say unfriendly things because she didn't do anything wrong and this is not me at all if I do.

I know I say something hurtful but this is how I feel. Once I have a broken friendship sometimes is hard for me to give all my effort into my friendships. Lets just say that I'm trying to be careful in making friends, is not that I don't trust my friends, actually I do on the right people I hope.

Anyways back to the point, it is hard to explain the situations I have these few weeks on my own blog but I hope that one day problems will solve soon.

For now, I feel helpless...... but what to do?

All I know is, there are some things I can't complain about how hard a human life is, because this is what a lot of people have to go through whether to take it optimistic or hard is up to a person's choice.

Hopefully, for me I will be able to make my life decision optimistically and move on without regrets and complaining. Although, I've never been much of hardships before and I know I'm not smart either but I'm sure I would think of something and at the very least for my future and our future.

P.S. I've started to do some planning on my blog layout and this time I want to do it properly and nicely. XD